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Megan gets her base tan

I've just peeled the second layer of skin from my legs, and they are still itching. The texture of the last layer wasn't like the kind I'd peeled off my arms and chest: this one was rubbery, and it didn't disintegrate when I balled it up between my forefinger and my thumb. It kind of reminded me of pulling off the plastic-wrap skin of library books, except instead of the yellowish, crinkled tint of age, my own skin was gray. This thought was inevitable: I am turning into Angelo Espinosa.

All the balls of dead, gray skin scattered around me on the couch remind me of this undeniable truth: I am fucking white. Being such a fucking white person, I need to take the necessary precautions such as putting on sunscreen. Unfortunately, my dumb-ass, having not been in sun since I realized "wow, it's HOT in the south", is uneducated about tanning methods. I didn't know that such a person as lily-assed as myself should develop a "base tan" before going out onto a boat for six hours WITHOUT sunblock. It was all going so well until my thighs started swelling up, and I could hardly bend my knees without hissing in pain. The skin near the groin area is the worse friggin place to get sun poisoning, let me tell you. Thank you Lord for Lidocaine.

At least I have my base tan now ;)
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    Brendan Benson - Emma J
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In a few

Dear Taylor,

I will write when I have privacy. My sister is nosy as hell.

With regards,
Megan
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    Panic at the disco (CHRISTMAS!)
sad girl

Megan is a bad friend

Avoidance issues aside (ha!), I'm not a very good friend. In fact, I'm kinda selfish (what??).

Yes, it is true.

I can't count on both my hands the number of times people have helped me when I needed. I can when the situation is reversed. It's always I'm tired, or I'll do it later, or WHY THE HELL ARE YOU BUGGING ME, DAD? Like when Taylor and me were moving in together. She helped me pack and move in all my shit from practically across campus, but when she needed help moving hers from up two flights of stairs, I was busy or tired or late.

and I'm never there when people need me, which is rare, but happens. Like when my sister has probs - I just nod my head and watch TV and justify doing that because I think she only talks about herself, which is true, but still. Also, when people want to talk to me I avoid them for days. Anthony, for instance. We have not had a real chat in weeks mostly because I always "have to be somewhere" which usually means I don't want to talk to him anymore. I can't blame that entirely on me. I get extremely pissed because he doesn't ever just talk- he makes me do all of it and ususally I don't mind, but every fucking time is annoying and I don't understand why he doesn't get that. "I don't usually talk about myself." Well tough shit, Anthony. Grrr....and if I actually said that to him he'd get all pissy and stop chatting and make me say something again cause I get impatient.
This is a typical conversation with him:

Him:/cuddles
Me: Hey! What's up?
Him: Nothing much. Working. You?
Me: Sitting on my butt....the usual....
(5 minute pause)
Him: Sounds interesting.
Me: Yeah, my life is so exciting, I think I saw paparazzi outside my window. So, how's life been? Any new dates? (blah blah blah)
(10 minute pause)
Me: Hello?
Him: Sorry.
(another 10 minutes)
Him: (random poll question)
(pause for me to think)
Me: (stupid answer)
(tick tock tick tock tick tock)
Him: Oh.
(more time passes)
Me: (talk about myself, blah blah)
Him: Uh huh.
Me: (getting annoyed with talking about myself) What about you?
Him: Uhhhhh....(loooooong pause)
pause
pause
pause
Me: Hey, I gotta go. Talk to you later, huh?
Him: Yeah. Bye.

THE END...finally. It's like torture to me, but not because I don't like him. Our conversation lately is so tedious and boring. Grrrr...



and I think I have a virus in my comp. Fucking ads.
  • Current Music
    David Bowie - Major Tom
swirly...

Pros and cons

Ah, the time to move has come again. This next move is taking me to Atlanta, Georgia with my older sister and her husband Carl. I don't really mind that at all. At least I'm more comfortable with her than living here. Not that I dislike Marsha or my dad, but it's been extremely awkward since I don't really know them all that well. It won't be too bad with Jen...I hope. right now she's scoping out 2 bedroom apartments.

Not like I have a choice in the matter right now, but I have made a list of the pros and cons of both living situations:

Jacksonville:
pros
Living by myself
BIG house
ROLLER DERBY(which I will miss oh so much. i just bought the skates dammit!)
Close to stores, library, thrift stores, mall, etc
Already learned the bus route & area
Some people
Grandparents and Aunt close by
Can play music as loud as I want
Right next to college

cons
The weather!(with hurricane season just around the bend)
No car
No rides
Bus route has horrible times
No job
No friends
Lonely
Not where I want to be
No license
Yard maintainance
Cigarette smell
Depending on undependable people

Atlanta:
pros
Living with family
Rides
People to teach me how to drive
Jobs prospects
Central area, lots of stuff close by
Puppies! Might get one for me!
Possible college
Support

cons
The weather!
Living with Jen
Depending on people
Loud dogs
Not where I want to be
Possibly lonely
Moving YET AGAIN
  • Current Music
    Stars - Celebration Guns
sad girl

small small room

They're back blowing their smoke around an already claustrophobic room. I can't get a word out.

Fuck.
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    Vashti Bunyan - Against the Sky
imaginary men

Wolvie & the X's

Wolverine & the X-men

Yep. Wolverine and the X-men. That is the name for the new cartoon series. It sounds like a bad 80's band name. Stephen and the Colberts excluded. Oh Charlene! I'm right behind you now.

Why does everything have to be about Wolverine? Logan Logan LOGAN! Gawd!
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    Led Zepplin - Immigrant Song
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Icons

I haven't posted up a list of icons in a while and my computer is loaded with my collection I found across the internet. I just figured out that LJ allows me 3 more icons now than when I first joined. Oh the choices...


I am an icon stealer*. I go through LJ and pick out icons I like from unsuspecting angsters. And guess what I found: cats. Why the hell do all these people post icons of their cats?? That's just annoying/crazy. I don't like cats. How am I suppose to steal their icon if I don't like it? The nerve of some people.




Harry Potter Icons(not mine):


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Random Icons(also not mine):


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Marvel Icons(1 is mine, the others no):


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As well as being my icon day this is also my annoyed semi-rant day as one can see by the above semi-rant. New topic: Magneto's Jewiness. Why does everyone just assume Magneto is Jewish?? Because he was in the Holocaust. Don't people realize that the Nazi's didn't *only* terrorize them? Probability is stacked in the Jews favor: of the 11 million people who were killed, 6 million were of Jewish, but there were 5 million others. Hitler put away homosexuals, intellectuals, Catholics, a lot of Polish, gypsies, and anyone who he didn't consider to have "pure blood" into concentration camps or the ghettos. Probability wise, Magneto has a high chance of being Jewish, but they can't disclude all the other people that were in it. I realize this rant sounds like I'm dissing the Hebrew faith and it's people; this is *very* much not the case. It's me getting annoyed at assumptions and the fact that most people don't even *know* about the other 5 million people that were slaughtered for just being alive. I think people just created an entire history for a character so that it fits what they know about history because if they had read the comics they would know that Erik Lehnsherr was a gypsy as was his future wife, Magda. This was stated in a few comics. I have a specific one, but I can't remember it's title. I'm pretty sure it was X-men Unlimited, but it featured Moira Mctaggert finding information about Magneto and what made him a mutant supremacist. It was after he turned him into a child. She even pulled up an old pic of him in stereotypically "gypsy" garb. If someone can prove from the comics that he was indeed Jewish, I will decant everything I have said. This rant is sooo pointless to people who haven't read the comics. And just pointless in general.


I think I'm going to be late for my frist day of work because of this rant and I still haven't posted my(not really) icons**. Shit...




*I actually made the rogue one.
**I found time to post them later.
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    Thursday - I am Killer